For You

This is for you,
A ‘you’ who’s like the me I’ve wanted to be

Lets get rid of this clutter, where we bother to care
To care for things only material,
Where joy and greed seem to be a pair...
I was told anything in excess can be dire,
Then why is there so much logic,
Are the demons at some trick?
So much materialism, so much money..
Have started to hate this monotony!

Why is it that I feel such a yearning
All we long for is "a sense of belonging"?
Why is there lies, there is so much stress
You and I, together.. I want to fix this mess
This is not the you I’ve known
Not the one whom time has outgrown

Lets be birds and make a new tale
Come on, don’t you know
Its not 'you', its a new 'me' that I had loved
Yes I have to confess, I need that again
Lets take to the skies and become insane...

Deep down, I know I’ve chosen you
Because I want to be a child all new
Innocent, non-manipulative and fair,
A child who dreams to dare
Unlike the grown ups whose dreams are a show
And then they get caught in not letting go..
Life becomes purpose driven, mind loses sheen,
Why worry so much, lets let go!

Lets craft a world where we are birds,
Where our thoughts don wings...
Where we rise and fall....with equal ease
I know its you....who can make this possible
The material world CAN become feeble…
Beauty, fun and adventure will behold
As the child in me learns to unhold

Then there will be no 'me' who searches for a 'you'
All I would say is I love you…

On a serious note

Ok, finally give in.. have been at this since morning, my mind is juggling between attempting to make a report on “credit rating methodologies” and the temptation of making a new word doc for this post.. After 1 hr of struggle, the latter has won for obvious reasons :)
This one’s on a serious note.. on my inability to be how I used to be.. no, nothing drastic has happened but small lil things which I loved doing somehow don’t get done.. Yesterday I got the final bashing from my best friend and I’ve promised her to come up with why this is happening the next time we meet.. so till then, I have this thought all to myself… May be its plain boredom or laziness that has crept in..I had an action packed February, including some not so welcome things too.. And now I discover March has this lullness to it.. There are lectures to attend, there is a big project pending but somehow, somehow, things just don’t move.. Its getting v monotonous out here!
Have been planning to flood my blog with some blogposts.. Here are some things that could see light, through which I could a get of sense of doing those small lil things which should get done!

1. I have been wanting to write on my longing to my hometown, to feeling the evening breeze in my hair on my two-wheeler, to missing the talks with friends on the entrance gate of my house.. I can just go on and on about how nostalgic I’m getting today.. In Nagpur, I feel careless, I feel free.. .. I could go on and on about how much I owe to this place.. Was born and brought up here.. The culture, the food, the weather, the warmth of friendships, the ease of connectivity (fyi to reach any point in the city, it will take you a maximum of 25 min, thanx to the circular geography!).. I miss it all sooooooooo much.. it is quite sad that it was more than 2 years that I had deprived myself of this home coming..

2. I have been wanting to write on my exaggerated (read blown up) disappointment about the surprise party and a couple of more things which never happened!

3. I have been wanting to write on my fuss over food (its not funny.. I wanted to postpone tying the knot with him for this!)

But I don’t want to write very impulsively about these things because it might lead to auto-suggestion and then I have a fear that these feelings will choose not to leave.. Will leave it at that..